anotherlook

Time and time again people try to cover up the ugliness that is in their soul with niceness, failing to realize that who they are consistently comes shinning through every time. It comes through in motivation, in intent, in insincerity. Your ugliness shines through in the words you choose to verbalize your experiences, the jokes you think are funny. Your inner thoughts and feelings are constantly on display by your very persona and you can not hide these characteristics by wrapping them up in niceness.

People are always amazed at my ability to see who they are. I had one friend tell me I must have been touched by an alien (rather than an angel) while others have told me I need to stop trying to analyze everything and learn how to live. Still others will confirm my take on any and everybody else but when my analysis of them comes to light they deny and sometimes get angry at what I have to say.

I am always amazed at an individual’s capacity to deceive and deny themselves; their half hearted attempts at hiding who they are while I recognize, even in this denial that deep within themselves they know who they are. The first step towards change is acknowledgement.

When you think there are elements of yourself that are not conducive to your positive concepts or self image, when you have to dress up what you say with insincere words in an attempt to hide what is real and you think change is needed, you first need to acknowledge through verbalization or inside meditation that change is needed. Point being that if you have to hide who you are behind insincere niceties then even you know, under the layers of denial, that something is not right.

I think it is pitiful that in the white world, when the going gets rough, the racism gets strong because in the racism is familiarity a good feeling of superiority, power and comfort found in the irrational belief that they are somehow better. Truth is your racist attitudes are more of a burden, a blemish on your soul and a scar upon your heart than an uplifting enhancement of your character and your racist attitudes shine brightly in the glow of the noon day sun eclipsing the brightness of the sun with the dark ugliness in your soul.

Even though I try not to let racism bother me, it always stabs at my heart and turns my stomach but I refuse to let it alter who I am. While I truly feel sorry for those who are motivated by hate and racism, I can not help the very real affect of it touching my very soul and I thank God that I do not carry with me the hate that rules the life of so many in the world.

And that’s the way I see it!!!

All Shall Perish - Awaken The Dreamers CD